Pulling Myself Up

Due to various reasons that I’m not gonna unload on the blog, I’ve spiraled down into a funk.  Just a feeling of overwhelm, minus the motivation to do anything about it.  For me, this means being a lousy mom and a lazy person.  I feel fatigued, constantly tired, with a short temper and I make poor eating decisions.  Not good.  It just gets worse and worse until I get to a point where I finally decide enough is enough.

This time that point came when I realized I was ten pounds up!  After I had worked hard to get down to a happy place.  I started soccer, and I really wanted to be good again!  I wanted to be in shape and feel better all around.

So this week, I started dragging my butt out of bed at 6am.  Well, I snooze for like 10 minutes, but then I drag my butt out of bed.  I find a quiet place to be alone, which unfortunately happens to be all the way down in the basement, but it works.  I do my short yoga DVD, and miraculously, the kids are still asleep!!

I’m trying to make sure I drink lots of water, so while I’m doing that, I’m emptying the dishwasher and packing Easton’s lunch.  It’s nice to be able to focus on a task without fifty interruptions!  By that point it’s time to wake Easton up so I make sure he’s up to get dressed and brush his teeth, and then I go back downstairs to make coffee.  While Easton eats breakfast, I try to sit with him and so some reading from his poetry folder or go over his weekly word wall words.  It’s fun time with him and nice to get it done early because he certainly isn’t in a mood to do it later!!

After I take Easton outside and he gets on his bus, Brian is in the meantime making sure the other kids are eating their breakfasts and getting dressed.  I take this time to go do 30 minutes of walking on the treadmill.  I pulled or tore my calf muscle a week and a half ago in soccer, so baby steps.  It feels good to get moving.  I can then shower, Brian leaves for work and I feel better prepared to manage these 4 little ones.

In an effort to keep them from running amuck, and working on their educational skills, I’m busting out more board games and organized activities, as well as flash cards and workbooks.  They love this stuff!  And again, I feel happy knowing that I’m being a better mom and they are learning stuff.  It really helps to cut down on their whining, complaining and asking for snacks LOL.

As for my eating habits, I’m trying to follow a 21 Day Fix idea of a meal plan, incorporating intermittent fasting.  I’m hoping to feel better, and regulate my systems like my thyroid, circulation, hormones, etc.  I’m also trying to reduce inflammation and recover faster from these injuries and aches.  Thirty-eight is obviously getting up there to play competitive soccer, but I’d love to play as long as I can.  This is pretty much essential for keeping my mental health on track.

So there you have it – my plan to turn things around a bit, and find some order in this chaos.  I’m working on controlling the things I can control and letting the other stuff be.  A truly monumental task for a classic worrier like me, but nevertheless here goes.

So far so good, as I’ve started small.  Today is day 2 only, but the changes I’ve made are few and pretty mild so I don’t get discouraged.  Hopefully I can work up to bigger changes, but that’s another bridge to cross.

I’d love to hear what you guys are doing to bring order to the chaos around you.  How are you structuring your day?  What are you doing to take care of yourself better?  Give me ideas!

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Mama Needs Her Soccer

What do you do when you have a 6:30pm soccer game (an hour away at rush hour!), and your husband is working late?  Why, you take the kids of course!!  And half the toys in your house, a bag full of snacks and iPads.  And you stop at McDonald’s on the way for Happy Meals.  And you promise them that if they are good while Mommy was on the field, you’d buy them an ice cream treat on the way home.  You do what you gotta do!

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You make them run around before and after the game, as well as at halftime to ensure tiredness.  It also helps if your friends bring their kids too!!  Especially when you are on a nice turf field with no goals, and a half an hour after game time you have to pack up your camp and drive to an unlined field in town that has goals and set back up again.

You get to play your game, get a win, and you have well-behaved children while you are doing so.  So at 9pm, you drive back to the same McDonald’s and order milkshakes and flurry blends.  You don’t care that some ice cream and M&Ms got spilled and dried into your van seat.  You don’t care that there’s Happy Meal garbage everywhere.  You don’t care that the kids stay awake all the way home because they are just being so dang good in the car!  You even say yes when they ask you if they can take their iPads to bed at 10pm because you are just thrilled (and surprised!) that they were so well-behaved for you the entire long evening.   Because you got to play soccer.  Because you didn’t have to worry about them.

Because life has gotten a lot easier in the last couple of years.  Because it’s never going to be easy, but it certainly gets more enjoyable.

Kickin’ 2018’s Butt

Well, trying.  After a holiday week – and then some – of binging (belated holiday wishes!) I am back on the ketogenic way of eating.  Trying to get back in a rhythm that I was in before the holidays tanked me.  I’m slowly returning to keto food prep and attempting one new recipe a week that’s keto-friendly.

I’ve also read The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up by Marie Kondo, and we have redone our bedroom and master closet and now I’m ready and raring to go on that!!  Tomorrow begins The Great Purge of 2018, which is the year I’ve decided to KonMari the sh*! out of my house!!

I’m also working with Easton more on his phonics and reading, which is an area he is having a bit of trouble with, and the mom guilt is shaming me for it.  So I’m pledging each day to read with him and work on his letter sounds and sight words.  So far he is loving the readers I printed out and all of the Level 1 books I’ve purchased that he can read and learn to read.

Also in this year is my journey to return to playing soccer.  I’ve been out for a couple years due to a concussion and post-concussive symptoms, but a piece of me has been missing ever since, and I’d like to attempt to get back out on the field, if only for pickup games.  Along with that is my goal of just getting back in shape, since I’ve gotten far off track in that area.  (It’s sad when I have to sit after 2 flights of stairs!)

Plus I have some amazing trips and events planned this year that I’m really looking forward to, and basically I want to share all of it with you guys.  It’s really selfish though because writing it down and getting it out is totally therapeutic for me, but hopefully you guys enjoy the ride too.  Please comment, comment, comment with helpful suggestions and share your own 2018 journeys!!!!